Ohhh well. a few little things seem to settle.
First of all, i recently got a new job, and its nice to start new other things since ill get some good money.

second, my boyfriend and i are working very hard to get to find him a job in my country (canada) so that he can come over and live with me.

that would just be the best thing ever.
i just miss him too much. weve been apart for 3 months now, and its hard.japan is sooo far away. i miss him like hell.. but hopefully i will get the job for him next to my town and everything will be fine...?

then pretty much everything else should be much better.. id go back to university as originally planned, he would have a job in his fields.. and wed be together. maybe not in the beginning, because this place is in the city next to mine. but i think 2h30 by car is much better then 18h by plane
and well.. from there on it should just be all good and easy (i guess) to get to be more together afterwards